Saturday, October 25, 2008,12:50 pm
HAAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO & JASMINE (:
woke up this morning to freaking swollen eyes .
it was horrible, and it felt horrible too.
so i didnt go to school :x
but it was a relief , because part of me didnt want to as well.
but,
there was training in the afternoon, so i forced myself out, rubbed my eyes in cold water and left the house.
i was dead set, to walk away from the people i wanted to avoid.
BUT ,
i realise that ,
the more you try to avoid someone,
the more prominent they are.
they seem to appear EVERYWHERE .
anyway, running away from my problems is not the way.
avoiding and pretending isnt either.
i just need to figure out a way for confrontation .
hahha .
shar they all had already left .
so i couldnt get my laptop -.-
played basketball with manprit and the rest.
and then training started .
but first,
i had to force myself to apologise to siming.
it was really hard okay!
but, i know he didnt deserve the treatment i gave him.
esp after he was trying to cheer me up.
but still ! my impressions of him made it really hard!
lols
our training then started at 3.
SUPER EARLY considering.
we were quite happy, thinking it would end early.
but we ended at 8plus.
gosh, 5 hours of training ?!
initially, it was so tiring !
we ran only 5 rounds, but it seemed so tiring,
our stamina has seriously dropped.
and we usually did jiao bu immediately,
but even with break.
jiao bu was HORRIBLY TIRING !
felt so disappointed.
but,
the rest of training was great.
truly learnt alot.
and i think we played much better !(:
i started to have second thoughts again.
we were having so much fun !
and i really didnt want to quit.
but, what could i do ?
spoke to ms tang, rather ms yau.
and she shoot me sentence after sentence.
sighs.
i dont what to do !
one day my thought point at this decision.
the next day, my decisions rest in the other.
dammit man.
hahaha .
i really need to fast & pray!
i really dont want my life to continue this way.
heartofGodchurch